I have been back at work for a couple of weeks now and things are going good. It has been hard leaving Linc when I drop him off and I miss him every day but the days fly by. He has been loving his daycare which makes everything so much easier! My work schedule also allows me to be home in the evening and on the weekends which I LOVE.
My shift starts pretty early in the morning and I also get up in time to workout every morning so it is a long day but I am so thankful I am home in time for dinner and bedtime. There are some days I don’t feel like getting out of bed to workout but I know it makes me feel so much better and sets me up for the day. It is also my “me time”. It is at least one thing that I do everyday that is just for ME.
How Things Have Changed
There are so many things that have changed in the last year. Going from working full time pre-baby to being off work with Linc for a year and now going back to work and trying to juggle the same amount of stuff in WAY less hours than I had on mat leave haha. Mat leave is no vacation that’s for sure but you are on your own schedule so it can make the adjustment a little easier. You can get up and stay in your pj’s all day if you want. There is still tons of stuff to do but it is much more relaxed in regards to scheduling.
So far, I don’t think going back to work has been a “break.” It is much more challenging and the guilt of not being home with Linc is so REAL. Not being there with him everyday sucks and is hard, but the smiles and exitment I get when I pick him up after work makes all of the exhaustion and hard work worth it!!
I am only a couple weeks in but I can say that cooking dinner has been more difficult. It is so hard to find the time and energy once I get home from work to cook. So far I have been making crockpot dinners on the night that I am home later and I have been doubling my recipes so we can have leftovers for a couple of days. Cooking a home cooked meal every night just isn’t realistic for me. I have been trying to meal prep as best as I can so I can at least take the guess work out of what we are having for dinner. I’m sure it will get easier and I’m sure I will get into a groove after a couple months but for now I am winging it and I am okay with that! I still make sure there is a healthy meal on the table regardless.
We Can’t Do It All
I have realized since being back to work that I can’t do it all. None of us can. Everything I was doing when I was on mat leave was manageable because that was my job but now that I am back to work, all of these things still need to get done. There just aren’t enough hours in the day. I admit that I am terrible at asking for help. I try and take on all the tasks by myself, not often asking for help from my husband. He told me the other day that I need to ask him for more help because there is no way I can do it all. I appreciated that. I often try and take on a million tasks and before I know it I am so overwhelmed and I am feeling like a bad mom because I didn’t get that last load of laundry in before bed.
We can’t do it all mamas, nor should we have to. All of you workin’ moms and stay at home moms are killin’ it!! You are all truly badass!
Overall, I would say that we are adjusting well and I’m sure it will only get easier from here🙂